Deciding to be a Single Gal

After much deliberation…err... actually, more like  recently some mild heartbreak, I have   rethought the possibility of remaining single…for the rest of my life.  Why would I want to do that, you ask? What would be the benefit to doing such a thing? Don't you want to get married, have someone by your side, and children?  

Of course, I want all those things. I dream of having a man who truly cares about me, who tries to take care of me, while I try my best to care for him.  I would like a family, children, and that caring man to grow old with. You know, someone to nag me about taking my pills and someone who will be there to call the hospital after I keel over. 

But guy after guy, I wonder if that if I took the approach "I'm going to be a Single Gal forever" that I might fair better in this game called love.  Perhaps if I ONLY focus on me, perhaps if I not concerned about screwing up potential relationships, then Mr. Right could come walking through the door.

Maybe if Im not looking or thinking about him than maybe he will be drawn to me.  

So I've decided. L.G. is going to be single from now on. I'm speaking with Samantha Jones right now to complete my "Never Getting Married" file.  

And then, if I don't ever get married, if my happily ever after is a solo show, then I'll be content with that fact. I wont be harboring the desire for something else. I wont be looking for something else or someone else to make me feel like I'm a complete adult.  Then maybe I'll be happy being alone. 

After all, as Charlotte asked, "Would it really be such a terrible thing [to be single for the rest of my life]?"

I certainly like myself more than I have ever loved a man, so maybe I'll just be content on being that forever Single Gal who works on herself, who creates a better world for more than just one person, or a few children.  Maybe by being a Single Gal I can truly do something that is worth being remembered for.  Maybe by being single I can bring more hope to my students. Maybe I can further my education without feeling guilty. Maybe I can teach in Italy for a semester like I've always dreamed of. Maybe I can go to Officer School and get deployed without feeling bad about leaving my significant other.  Maybe by being a single gal I can do me and in the process become much better than if I had ever been attached to a man in the first place….